This blog is closed once and for all.
Mr.Narayanan, writer of this blog passed away due to lung failure.
May his soul rest in peace.
These days even my diary entries have become few and far between. This time, it is after a week that I am writing another post.
I had been getting acute pain in my hip and right foot, and when it was getting a bit too much for me to keep it to myself, I blurted it out to Rupa and she spoke to Raju who cast about to find another medical opinion. Good for me, the father of one of his staff members happens to be a senior consulting physician. The good doctor gave a date for my consultation and accompanied by Rupa, I visited the doctor.
I was advised to undergo physiotherapy, namely lumbar traction and short wave diathermy, which was initiated in that hospital, and I was advised to continue the same for ten days at a place nearer my home, and to report to the doctor after that. I would then be expected to go for a comprehensive medical check up.
I located a physiotherapist nearer and started the treatment.
The world is not waiting for me to catch up and things are happening. I hard a sad news of a young life having being lost in an unnecessary incident. A good samaritan provided me with some liniments, a heating cum cold pad, and a gadget for relieving pains.
I also heard that a wedding is going to take place in a relative’s family in August. And my sister Annapoorni’s grandchild’s Upanayanam is going to take place somewhere around that date. I will try to accommodate these occasions in my itinerary when I visit Chennai for my Visa Interview.
I now look forward to my visit to Chitra in New Jersey. Hopefully I would have shed all my temporary physical inconveniences so that I can enjoy my stay with her and make Chitra happy too. I plan to fly out on the 15th Oct. and be back accompanied by Chitra around Christmas. She will hopefully stay in Hyderabad for perhaps 20 days with a few sorties thrown in for a good measure.
I will write my next post sometime in my own ambling way.
Today I found a gem of a webpage which I am pasting here under:
I request anyone browsing this post to please open this link and read the words of a great saintly personality, an excellent article by the most venerable Maha Periyaval.
Now I continue my mundane post in my usual uninteresting style, because this is just a personal diary but holding no secrets that could embarass niether me nor anyone else.
I showed my hip X ray to the physician and he continued my medicine for the pain, though I have not felt any relief yet. Yesterday I had to climb down five floors which caused me acute pain in my lower leg and foot. I have a mind to take a second opinion from a surgeon. I am now planning to visit my daughter in New Jersey in October for a two month stay with her there, and I don’t want to carry my pain with me.
Rupa strongly suggests to me to go for regular evening walks so that I can accustom my feet to get used to withstand the pain and in the bargain it may even alleviate the pain. I shall start a half an hour’s walk from now on.
I have paid the Visa fees and also obained an interview appointment on September 7th. I have sent an offline message to Chitra to block the tickets and send the details to Raju, and also to send proofs to be subnmitted to the Visa authority.
The general physician assured me that my sugar level is now normal, and I have started to include sugar intake in my diet. Next month when I go for a medical check up, I will check my sugar level once again.
I have senior acquaintances who have learnt to live with their sugar problem, but I want to avoid it and also to lose the leg pain before I go visiting my daughter. I want to just grow older without the accompanying health problems.
There has been no rain since past few days and there is bright sunshine. We have acquired a few more flower plants including roses in different colours and also so ornamental plants. Our lawn is now more colourful, but it needs regular watering. Hopefully the colony gardener will help us to maintain the flowers and the lawns in good condition.
Raju is getting busier and busier and Rupa and Raju never take leave except the Saturdays and Sundays. While I am away, God willing, in October, they are also planning a few days off white water surfingfor a couple of days or so in the North.
They are looking forward to this adventure very eagerly, and I wish ”Vaya con Dios” to them.
I was regularly phoning to my sister Lalitha, Annapoorni and Soundaram to update information about their welfare. Karthik has now gone to Dubai on a permanent working visa, and hopefully next year moving his wife and kids with him when school admissions start there. I am also in touch with my uncles and aunts regularly. I talk to my cousins and nephews less often.
I will be making a trip to Madras in September for the Visa Interview, and will hopefully fly to New Jersey in October of everything is all right. Chitra will mother over me for two months and will accompany me back to Hyderabad in December for a few weeks’ stay with me.
I think I will stop today’s post now, have a wash, light the lamp and communicate with Kala for a few moments and say my prayers. Vaya con Dios.
I had been there and done it. I completed my trip and am back . I was invited to go over to Pondicherry to stay there briefly. I left Hyderabad on the 30th evening and travelled for the first time by air conditioned sleeper coach. As I am unused to sleep in A/C, I was dreading the unaccustomed coolness and it did affect me. I had cramps the whole night and had quite a dsturbed sleep. Soon as I alighted, I went to the Bus Terminus at Koyambedu and promptly the bus started for Pondicherry. It was comfortable and the warmth of the day acted like balm. I was met in the Pondicherry Bus Terminus by Rupa’s father. I was a bit tired and under weather, and conditionally surrendered to the affectionate command to spend my whole time in Pondicherry and return to Hyderabad directly via Madras. By morning I was quite refreshed and regained all my energy. I expressed my wish to proceed to Madras immediately and was permitted so.
I caught a bus to Madras around 10.30 in the morning on the 2nd July. I got down in Tiruvanmiyur, and after fixing up the total fare for a big round trip of visits, visited my cousin first. I saw his cute little nascent granddaughter. Mother and child are healthy and happy. After spending around half an hour, I was on my way again. I visited maternal aunt and uncle’s homes, spent a few minutes with them, and then was on my way to my sister Soundaram’s house. She is passing through health problems and domestic worries. I gave her a few minutes’ companionship and solace.
I then visited my youngest sister and her family. My nephew is awaiting the receipt of his permanent work visa shortly and so was also around. I met them all and the kids. Then I rode to my uncle’s home and sat with them for a few minutes. I chatted merrily with my nephew Deepak who is resting after an unfortunate accident.
Therefrom I rode a long time and reached Annapoorni’s house and it was already past 6.30 in the evening, and I was already late for the wedding reception which I aimed to attend there. I settled the autorickshaw fare and sent the driver off. I freshened up, had a coffee, changed into fresh clothes and rode to function place. I was happy to meet my friend and his family after a few years, and all of them looked happy and satisfied. The recently married son whose wedding reception it was, looked quite fetching in a good suit, receiving guests . His sisters have grown up well shod and well clad, and there was happiness on all faces.
While returning to my sister’s home for the night, I was suffering too much pain in my hip joint which was troubling me for quite sometime now. I sat and chatted with my sister and brother in law, and I even had a little treat. I rested well during the night.
The next afternoon I started for home. My sister and brother in law accompanied me to the Railway Station, put me in the compartment, and took their leave. The return trip was more comfortable and I made full use of the woolen blanket provided by the railways. All except one were males in m compartment. The only girl sat opposite me and I picked up a little conversation with her. She seemed quite intelligent and I learnt that she is a Post Graduate in Economics and gainfully employed.
The fourth morning early around 5.30 we reached Secunderabad. By the time I was out of the Railway Station and came to its entrance gate, Raju was on time, as we correlated our timings, and I was home before 6.30, and Rupa was ready with my sugarless c offee.
The next day I went to the Hospital to consult an orthopaedic surgeon. He said I will have a slow recovery. He prescribed a tablet and an ointment. Now I am back to my regular routine of browsing and channel flipping.
The last two days were pleasanter, and last night it was very windy. Electricity was also erratic. Today it is cloudy. If it is cloudy the weather depresses you, and you don’t feel like working at all.
Raju and Rupa left for office around 9 in the morning. Rupa will be perfecting her driving skills in the next few days. Chitra chatted with me for around ten minutes.
My cousin’s daughter delivered a baby girl and mother and daughter are healthy.
Another day to go before I leave for Madras. We are all getting older and old age brings other health problems to most of us. Life is like a train journey. We all travel to our destinations and part from others. The train goes on and on but passengers change. For me personally life is becoming more and more boring. It is not just physically boreing, but your spirit too becomes tired. You become more and more isolated from others.
We come to this world alone and when we leave we are lonely. We do not know what happens to our spirits. My personal experience after Kala’s passing away is a total estrangement with her because I feel she has taken away all her memories erasing everything of our 35 years of life from my memory. I don’t know ehrther her soul has transmigrated to another corporal body to be born and live life again on this earth. Where her memories were in my heart, there is only a sad emptiness now.
I am sure how the others who were associated with her, – her father, her siblings, and her close relatives, relive her memories. I am sure they all think of her a lot more than I do, the heartless me, because they have human feelings.
My bags are packed and my tickets are in my pocket, and I am starting to get edgy. For the first time I am travelling by Third A/C. I am not used to A/C during sleeping time and I don’t know whether I will freeze or will get muscular catches. I am the worrying type. Hopefully Raju will drop me at the Railwa y Station tomorrow. I am not sure about
Tuesday when I return. If he wakes up early and is in a mood, I will get picked up; otherwise I will come away on my own.
I have a new acquaintance who has come over to his son’s place for a brief stay. He is a senior gentleman of 80, and has lived life full well. Though affluent and influential, he is a nice company in whom I found unreserved friendliness and a good talking companion. He has moved in high circles and is very world wise. He is full of sense and he is an interesting conversationalist. He could engage you in a wide spectrum of subjects and with telling effect. He will be returning to his own place shortly and I will miss him.
I have recently watched two movies on my computer and went to the theatre with my people to watch Rajinikanth’s Sivaji in telugu. It must have been technically high standard but the movie didn’t impress me like Rajinikanth’s earlier movies. His charisma was missing and I only saw artificiality. His piercing eye effect was not there. Basha is my all time favorite and his other films like Muthu, Chandramukhi were all a lot better. This is strictly my own opinion and I am not the best judge.
Raju is now a Business Manager and it will be a challenging time for him in the next few months. He is equal to the situation and I am sure he will acquit himself and excel too.
Another two days to go and then I will be off to Madras for a brief visit. I will have a hectic time visiting my sisters, cousin, uncles and aunties, and also attend a wedding reception which is my main reason for this trip. As usual I have packed my bag over ten days ago, and I will reach the railway station at least an hour or so early to avoid tension.
My blood sugar level come back to normal though I continue to take all the tablets. And I avoid sugar in my coffee, eat more of wheat preparations than of rice, cut down cooking oil consumption. I don’t use ghee at all. But generally people advise me not to forgo everything and to include some sweet also in my diet. I am being a bit cautious.
Keeping in touch with Chitra. Rupa manages home and career well. She keep posting Blogs regularly.
Almost a fortnight ago, I was instructed by the physician to take blood and urine test, and it turned out that I had excess sugar in my blood. This information put me off considerably and I was really miserable worrying how I can give up all my snacks, oils, butter and sugar. However, I exercised iron will, stopped sweetening my coffee, cut oils and ghee from my diet, shunned raw rice. Ten days of austerity had a telling effect. This morning I had the review test reports with me and showed to the doctor and he was surprised that I back to normal sugar content, quite normal in fact.
See, from the beginning I was sceptic about the sugar test results and never really believed that my sugar lever has risen so steeply. As I am getting old, these health problems are bound to pester me. Till I had the retest results in my hand this morning, I was quite sure that my sugar level will revert back to normal, and I was proved correct.
I will tell you why this happened. I have told you many times that I am not vry much into godliness. But my forte is that I love my children very much, and I want to maintain good health so that I can always be of help to them. This is a kind of auto suggestion which I keep drumming into myself and it has really done me good.
I would say that when some problem gets you down, dont let your spirits sink. By worrying you are not going to achieve anything. On the other hand if you have convictions like I have, I think you can overcome problems like this.
It is not to say that I am comletely cured of my sugar problem. I will not deceive myself that I am immune. I will give allowance to my age and take suitable precautions and preventive measures so that I can postpone the inevitable to the utmost limites possible in my capacity.
Raju has taken additional responsibilities as he is now the Business Manager for his product. He will have to work hard and show results by and by. I have full faith in my children to prove themselves, and I include Rupa too.
Rains have been there continuously here in Hyderabad the whole day. Elsewhere in the State, rain has played havoc costing loss to life and property.
Chitra skipped an opportunity to go on a trek with friends because she is preoccupied.
I am feeling nausea throughout the day, and I hope this will go after a good night’s sleep. I have asked Rupa to get me some fruits.
I read about the formation of Hindu Quaida in Nepal. I don’t know what the world is coming to.
I want to see at least one day where there is no strife, no murders, retributions, hunger, pestilence, natural calamities, etc. in the world. That day will be heaven on earth.
Most of us have by heard of Gliese 581 and 581c through media and internet. Even today I saw an artist’s impression on Gliese 581c: http://antwrp.gsfc.nasa.gov/apod/astropix.html. This link will take you to that image.
The parent star Gliese 581 is a red dwarf, and is 20.5 light years away from Earth, and is in the constellation Libra. According to the Gliese Catalogue of nearby stars, it is the closest star system with respect to earth.
Gliese 581 c is the first extrasolar planet believed to have a surface temperature similar to that of Earth. It is the smallest extrasolar planet around a main sequence star discovered to date. Its discovery was announced in April this year, and was published in Astronomy and astrophysics Journal.
If it is a rocky planet with a large iron core, and has a radius approximately 50% larger than that of Earth, and it has a stronger gravity than Earth. Its orbital speed and orbital radius are much less than those of Earth. It is on the warm edge of the habitual zone around its parent star. The atar will appear much larger from the planet’s surface and its surface heat will also be higher than that of Earth. As the planets atmosphere is as yet unknown its actual surface temperature cannot be ascertained. Liquid water could exist but no evidence has yet been found. Its tidal forces could be 400 times as strong as on Earth. Only the twilight zone of its surface could be habitable.
I could collect the above data from Wikipedia.
Chitra called late last evening. I haven’t yet received her call today. She must have been busy submitting her proposal to the panel. She should call sometime this evening.
During my student days I had walked and pedaled a lot. Of late I have lost the spirit of walking. I have become a recluse and an isolationist. It is as if I am retracting myself into a shell. There must be a lot of reasons. Senility is one. I have read that habitual use of aspirin leads to impotence. I have been prescribed aspirin and I am taking it since the last over 25 years.
Let me ponder on my heart problem. I started smoking since when I was 15. After our wedding, Kala used to call cigarette my first wife, she being relegated to the second place. It was such a compulsive habit, and I was so weak willed. It is a fact that smoking affects lungs too. I don’t know about my lungs but it surely has affected my heart. So I was spending for my cigarettes and my medicines too. no further introspection.
Would you believe that I have no friends, despite the fact that I am friendly and amenable. I had classmates, colleagues and acquaintances, but no friends. I had always been a loner. I went to the Marina beach alone, sat on the sands alone, pondered life alone; went to movies and libraries and art exhibitions alone.
God compensated with Kala, who was everything anyone would desire, into a bundle. She was my friend, protection and my white stick.
While I am writing my uneventful diaries, the nation is going ahead to get its new President. That bring the personality of President Dr. A.P.J. Abdul Kalam into focus. I have copied Dr. Kalam’s profile from President of India.nic.in.
“Born on 15th October 1931 at Rameswaram in Tamil Nadu, Dr. Avul Pakir Jainulabdeen Abdul Kalam, specialized in Aeronautical Engineering from Madras Institute of Technology. Dr. Kalam made significant contribution as Project Director to develop India’s first indigenous Satellite Launch Vehicle (SLV-III) which successfully injected the Rohini satellite in the near earth orbit in July 1980 and made India an exclusive member of Space Club. He was responsible for the evolution of ISRO’s launch vehicle programme, particularly the PSLV configuration. After working for two decades in ISRO and mastering launch vehicle technologies, Dr. Kalam took up the responsibility of developing Indigenous Guided Missiles at Defence Research and Development Organisation as the Chief Executive of Integrated Guided Missile Development Programme (IGMDP). He was responsible for the development and operationalisation of AGNI and PRITHVI Missiles and for building indigenous capability in critical technologies through networking of multiple institutions. He was the Scientific Adviser to Defence Minister and Secretary, Department of Defence Research & Development from July 1992 to December 1999. During this period he led to the weaponisation of strategic missile systems and the Pokhran-II nuclear tests in collaboration with Department of Atomic Energy, which made India a nuclear weapon State. He also gave thrust to self-reliance in defence systems by progressing multiple development tasks and mission projects such as Light Combat Aircraft.
As Chairman of Technology Information, Forecasting and Assessment Council (TIFAC) and as an eminent scientist, he led the country with the help of 500 experts to arrive at Technology Vision 2020 giving a road map for transforming India from the present developing status to a developed nation. Dr. Kalam has served as the Principal Scientific Advisor to the Government of India, in the rank of Cabinet Minister, from November 1999 to November 2001 and was responsible for evolving policies, strategies and missions for many development applications. Dr. Kalam was also the Chairman, Ex-officio, of the Scientific Advisory Committee to the Cabinet (SAC-C) and piloted India Millennium Mission 2020.
Dr. Kalam took up academic pursuit as Professor, Technology & Societal Transformation at Anna University, Chennai from November 2001 and was involved in teaching and research tasks. Above all he took up a mission to ignite the young minds for national development by meeting high school students across the country.
In his literary pursuit four of Dr. Kalam’s books – “Wings of Fire”, “India 2020 – A Vision for the New Millennium”, “My journey” and “Ignited Minds – Unleashing the power within India” have become household names in India and among the Indian nationals abroad. These books have been translated in many Indian languages.
Dr. Kalam is one of the most distinguished scientists of India with the unique honour of receiving honorary doctorates from 30 universities and institutions. He has been awarded the coveted civilian awards – Padma Bhushan (1981) and Padma Vibhushan (1990) and the highest civilian award Bharat Ratna (1997). He is a recipient of several other awards and Fellow of many professional institutions.
Dr. Kalam became the 11th President of India on 25th July 2002. His focus is on transforming India into a developed nation by 2020.”
Dr. Kalam is a sterling personality. To be crowned as President is neither a crown of thorns nor a diadem to him. If you recall , all our Presidents were great personalities, and in my opinion Dr. Kalam stands taller than all.
His integrity shows in his mane of hair. I am sure that when he became President, people and the press would have speculated to no end as to what will happen to his hair style. To him, his hair style was imperative, and it remains so to this day.
Oh, what a lofty character he is. He is a born teacher and his approach to students of India was from the view point of a teacher. No other President, nor for that matter any politician, diplomat had interacted with so many students as President Kalam did.
His humility is genuine as expressed by the way he opened his first Presidential address, greeting the audience as Mahanubhavulu. As everyone knows by now, he is a connoiseur of music, himself a Veena player. He is a highly esteemed scientist. The seat of President is exalted by Dr. Kalam. He is truly a man of the century.
I missed Chitra’s long distance call as I had to go out in the morning. She must have forgotten that I won’t be home even though I had informed her earlier.
I would have to undergo review clinical tests to find out if my sugar level has come under control. So I had to get some funds ready, and also had to pay a visit long overdue. Hence I went away early morning, completed the financial transaction, made the visit, and returned home posthaste so as not to miss my lunch at the usual time.
another ten days to go for me to go to Madras, and as usual I shall start packing from now on. Just for three days to be away from home. I think from tomorrow I will start getting impatient to pack my bag, I am such an anxious gunk. I always make it a point to reach the railway station at least an hour early before the train departure. And for the first time in my life I am going to travel in air conditioned comfort because Raju booked me in a Third A/C compartment. What difference does it make; I will start sweating the moment I step down from the compartment in Madras.
A few days ago I was talking to Sharada and she informed me that Lakshmi was in the middle of a pilgrimage to Tirupathi and other places. When I called Lakshmi’s mobile, she did not respond obviously because she was in the process of paying her respects to God Almighty in the saqnctum. She however called me and had a detailed talk and I also got to talk to my co-brother, her husband, Sri Ramamoorthy.
A visit is overdue on my part to Delhi. As a matter of fact I had also planned visiting Poona too sometime this year. Chitra wants me to go over and stay with her for a couple of months this year. Raju has informed me that he will go about getting me a visitors’ Visa. Let us see how the cookie crumbles.
Thank God my mood has ataken a better turn, though my flesh is still weaker comparatively. I am sure I have lost some weight because of my austerities. I shall consult the weighing machine today.
Tomorrow I will go to the hospital early, pay the test fees, and give the tests on an empty stomach. I will come home, consume something and then again go for the post meal tests. Thus, armed with my results I shall consult the physician the day after, and I shall keep my fingers crossed. I am sure my penance and sacrifice will have paid dividends, and I would have shed the dead albatross of sugar in my blood and urine. God have mercy on me and my children.
Raju and Rupa have undergone professional assessments this year, and the results should reflect favourably on their remunerations. God give them all that they desire, deserve and merit, no more, no less.
I must make a round of trunk calls today to find out that all my kith and kin are healthy happy and cheerful. I pray every morning that God keep everyone happy and safe. Amen.